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willing to be well; and quite willing for any thing that
God will bring upon me! And then, said she, I felt myself perfectly
easy, in a full submission to the will of God. She then lamented much,
that she had been so eager in her longings for death, as it argued want
of such a resignation to God as ought to be. She seemed henceforward to
continue in this resigned frame till death.
After this, her illness increased upon her: and once after she had
before spent the greater part of the night in extreme pain, she waked
out of a little sleep with these words in her heart and mouth; "I am
willing to suffer for Christ's sake, I am willing to spend and be spent
for Christ's sake; I am willing to spend my life, even my very life, for
Christ's sake!" And though she had an extraordinary resignation with
respect to life or death, yet the thoughts of dying were exceeding sweet
to her. At a time when her brother was reading in Job, concerning worms
feeding on the dead body, she appeared with a pleasant smile; and being
asked about it, she said, It was sweet to her to think of her being in
such circumstances. At another time, when her brother mentioned
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