I've been there my friend I once drank for England then in 1997 I underwent REM therapy for childhood Post Traumatic Stess Disorder[PTSD].
A naval shrink once labled me as alcoholic but as my clinical phycologist said to me they are often wrong because they only treat what they see symptom wise .
I drank to unconsciousness to stop the night mares that I had night after night after night .
The REM therapy puts these bad memories into the place they should be in my subconsicous memory where they are locked away , however trauma of any kind can bring them to the fore again as I found in 2012 after we had a break in , however much older and wiser I went straight back to see the clinical phycologist .
I shook him by the hand thanked him for the last 17 years of my life and the happness I have now found and that I hope he could store these memories away again which he did .
However it pays to have a strong other half and in my Val I have that , she stuck with me through thick and thin.
I choose now not to drink because my problem has been removed however I must watch out for trauma like being broken into lest they escape again.
I have every respect for you Bro congaratulationson 7 years sober my friend
Dave